Admire with Gracia

  Everyone has a dream from their childhood that can be held onto them even if they grow, For some the interest may change depending on their likeness but for the rest, they'll find even more colourful things in the goal which they have dreamed about from their childhood. It was the most beautiful memory that you could ever have because you don't think about any other advantages or disadvantages of your goals it's all about your interest to be more specific your love towards your dream but even now If you really love your dream you'll never think about the society or what the people will say about you. And I really cherish my childhood even though I was left all alone most of the time. The dream that I had or should I say still I do, I wanted to be a singer or be a part of a choir, we even held concerts at home the sofa as the concert stage, The talcum powder bottle as a microphone, chairs and stools as musical instruments, and our parents as the audience, I felt like a...

  As a money-like creature of our family, I used to do so many naughty things which might trigger my parent's BP and pressure. Something they find is really annoying to the extent that they tell me to clean up the mess that I've created. As I was growing older I started to become quieter which surprised my family because I'm was kid who could do something crazy even if I was left all alone which I could call as playing, But don't think I got mature over the years because I thought the same and I was proud of myself but then it's not, I realised that even if I grew old and older the childness in us would never leave us which would define our inner child. Although I became quiet there were times when I couldn't keep my hands to myself as the curiosity regarding several things dragged my hand but still, I could act as a mature kid. The one incident would get into our parents and my sibling's head whatever falls down in our home. It was when the pandemic was at ...

  Our terrace in the upstairs played a remarkable role in my childhood. I was having my tea this evening while chit-chatting with my parents a spark of memory flashed in my mind for a second, The beautiful memory that I had in my childhood with my parents. It was a time when my parents were financially struggling a lot and here I and my sister were so little that we didn't even know the meaning of finance. So we were living on the first floor, above that terrace was there, whenever the power went off we used to get all our pillows and sleeping mat and we'd run to the terrace and come home at midnight when the power came back, As that was time there weren't many houses nearby so that we can be there in the terrace without disturbing others. We'll go there have some chit-chatting with each other and happily play together as we all were small kids. I remember the naughty things that I did even when my parents told me not to do. Once maybe I was like 4 or 5 years old, when ...

 I never saw cooking as my hobby just as people used to say since I have to cook out of compulsion, It doesn't mean I was forced but the situation had me to go through that. My parents used to get up before 5am every morning and they prepared both breakfast and lunch for all four of us by 8am we all would be dismissed and get back home by 5pm so after getting freshened up they would sit down for a cup of coffee which isn't enough for their tiredness. My parents are already getting older and their health is good but still, they will have some untold pain within them both physically and mentally. So as a good daughter, the only thing that I could do is ease their worries by helping them with their work. I'm either not a good cook or a person who knows various kinds of dishes to make. But I used to make tiffin for dinner like Dosa, idly, chapatti.....and various curries like chicken gravy, chicken fry and some other dishes. I did have some sodhapal moments in my first attempt ...

  Not every failure gives us success in the end but instead, it might give us the life which we never expected or else a happy ending. The failures that I met in my life were countless in various sectors but whenever I fell down I had this one thought in my head that is "Every pro was once a beginner" who also failed but still they didn't give up on what they did which lead to their incredible success. I wanna share a few incidents which really had a great impact on me till now. It happened when I was 11 or 12 years old I was a little girl who loved to sing the love that I had for singing was from the bottom of my heart so I wanted to join our church choir so badly that I went audition And guess what I got rejected, I've told you guys about how much I love singing but not how I sing, The rejection does make sense if you guys had listened to my singing. Yup, My singing was so awful back then. The rejection made me lose interest in music because that wasn't my first...

  I hope Y'all definitely have a backstory for your name but at least some do have a reason for their name. I wanna share the incident that gave me goosebumps whenever I listened to it from my mom, My mom was 7 months pregnant having me in her womb, That morning she went to school as usual It was about noon when she was teaching for middle school students the class she was standing in had a damaged roof , just imagine the government schools in 2005. As she was teaching all that she heard was the sound of a stone falling to the ground which was thrown by the students from the opposite building, when she opened her eyes the stone fell a few inches away from her belly. By God's grace both mother and child were protected. And here comes the miraculous day in which I was born. It was midnight on December 3rd, It was raining heavily outside, when my mom got her labor pain so my dad searched for a cab or an auto but couldn't able to get one. After searching for a while they found ...

As we all know forest is a home to every birds, animals and to the reptiles, as they were being comfortable around trees and bushes but I always thought do animal feel forest as their home? And how animals see forest?... Mother nature always surprise us with it's incredible creation, Forest is one of the mysterious place on earth because I wonder do we know the directions once we reached the depth of the forest or the way to go back? I felt that animals feel so comfortable and secured around woods than being with humans either it could be domestic animals or wild animals. Since animals are being wild if they are in forest it wouldn't be disturbance to both the animals and humans. I'm a person who feel relaxed at home whatever happens even though if I had a tiring day after coming home getting freshed up and sleeping in my bed is my comfort likewise I feel that animal also feel the same comfort in forest because they can feel the forest as their home since it has a peaceful ...

  My parents usually don't encourage me as an evening person because they believe that people who rise early in the morning will be more productive than anyone else. From my childhood, my parents taught me to go to bed as early as possible and getting up early is a strict rule to be followed by everyone in our family. As I grew older my homework got even heavier and the time in the evening was not enough for me so I had to sit up till late at night and finish my work, Moreover, I couldn't sleep without finishing that work. Within years pandemic arose across the world and the schedule had brought a drastic change in our family because my parents go to bed at their usual time but the sibling's fun starts after 10 pm and we go to bed in the early morning Sometimes We used to be awake till our parents get up from sleep which would surprise and trigger our parents anger. I started to adapt myself to schedule that I was comfortable with and I figured out that I was so active at ...

  I  never realised that I was that bad at learning a language until I started learning German, At first I found it somehow easy so I planned to revise things on the night before the exam. But when I opened the notes I could barely understand things and I was fed up, Basically I'm not interested in learning a new language. I have a traumatic past regarding learning language let me open up with y'all. When I was in 4th grade my parents forced me to join a Hindi language learning class that was held as an extra curriculum at my school, I started to learn it out of compulsion few months flew by, and my Hindi teacher started to select students for the annual exam by a written test in which I was failed to make it to the entrance exam at the first attempt. After trying for another whole year I finally made it to the entrance exam which I passed in the first class, after that, I never even thought of learning a language even though my sister insisted me to study a language during th...

 Friends are something that can bloom from when you step into this world in some cases. Friends play a crucial role in everyone's lives it's because getting a good friend is the greatest blessing from above sometimes our life depends on good friends because a good friendship can lead us into great achievements. My childhood days almost went by roaming around the house, playing alone, I didn't even have many friends at school. I had one friend till my 5th grade at school. I don't know how we both talked to each other and became a very good friends. We have been there for each other in our best and worst times, teaching one another the things we don't know, sharing each other's tough times. I know that we don't have that much stress and problems like we have now but the funniest things that we consider as a problem at that age can't be understand by an adult or a teenager, and we as kids share to eachother and consoling each other, after a while we might h...

On the 19th of June 2023, It was raining from midnight which I thought would be a rain of blessing from above since that was my first day of college I went there with my parents as it was an orientation day but still, I felt so nervous as I studied in girls school till my higher secondary and I'm kinda person who doesn't talk much to people it's not like showing attitude but not able to speak well until I felt comfortable around someone. I couldn't define the mixed emotions and feelings that I had at that time. Although I was thinking a lot about my survival in this college, I felt so grateful from the bottom of my heart to be standing there on that campus. The security there guided us to Anderson Hall where the morning prayer was happening, I stepped into the hall when the principal was leading the prayer and everything around me felt new. I sat on a chair somewhere in the middle and listened to the lectures that had been happening. Once the lecture was over and I came...

I hate choosing. Yeah, you heard it right. As a young adult till now I let my parents choose everything for me which I felt so secure. If you guys felt it weird then let me tell you the important reasons for this behaviour.  The prime basis for this thought towards decision-making is 'Blame'. What if the thing that I chose goes wrong? I can able to face the consequences with the help of the almighty but do you think the people to whom I was surrounded will let me live peacefully? They'll start to blame me for not listening to them they all will act like they have been advising me on a suitable path. I don't wanna turned out to be a victim at the end. Another reason is 'Trust' I blindly trust my parents because they always wanted the best for me and the best in me so I hope that whatever they choose for me will be the best for me, they might have known about the consequences before and they want to choose the opinion in which we can able to make our life to be be...

 As we are moving into AI and technology gradually we fail to notice so many wonderful things that have been happening around us. Everyone wanted to get a luxurious home, a job with less work, and a family without fights & disappointments to be frank, people wanted everything at their convenience. And people in the 21st century are being worried about everything and taking up depression, anxiety, frustration.....all by themselves. To which they don't have a moment to feel grateful for what they have. As a human beings, we all have our dreams and desires to be fulfilled so badly, while running for our dreams we successfully unnoticed the things for which we have to feel grateful. We have been worrying about the things that we don't have, during that moment why don't we spend a second to think back to the things that we have instead of mourning over what we don't have? Once we start to admire our lives we'll definitely feel grateful to reach the heights to which w...

I'm a girl who is terrified of this huge world because my parents were so aware of the bad things that happened in our surroundings, and they taught and scared me with those accidents so I never liked to go somewhere it's because I might come across some people who are really in need of help but at the same time some might trick us with those innocent face and talks as we can't know their intentions and I can't able to come quietly without helping them as I will blame myself for not even helping someone who's really in need of relief.   But now I don't have any other option but to use public transport and travel to my college alone all by myself. I kinda enjoy my own company until a problem arose out of nowhere. Every journey to college gives me a new lesson which terrifies me on the spot but makes me laugh out of my lungs after a few days of the incidents every single thing instills me to be cautious about myself since I'm a thoughtless person who never use...

We as humans always dreamed of being happy in our lives but does our life always give only sweet moments? Apparently  No, Although we dreamed of only experiencing the sweetest part of life but never thought about the sour part of our life still, do we try to escape from it, no right? Although we don't have enough strength or energy to face obstacles in life we somehow get motivated and overcome all the battles. Winning or losing the battle doesn't count since it's a big thing to face the obstacles instead of getting frustrated and trying to escape from life. After a lot of struggle and perseverance to overcome the battles that have been assigned to us and those past bad memories which we wanted to forget at any cost, might be with us as shadows to scare us to death in the time we shouldn't be. At times when life gives us tough times the thing we want the most is a 'Break' a time to think, a time to refresh and restart ourselves, a time to make a respectable deci...

FIRST SNOW When we hear the term 'winter' the illustration that comes into our senses is snow, why is that? I mean we as Indians never had snow in our homeland but why do we feel so excited about snow? As a kid, I badly wanted to play in the snow ever since I saw it in cartoons, Even dreamed of going abroad after being an adult just to have fun with the snow ( even now I want to go someplace where I can play with snow ) effects of inner child. Snow represents the sign of clear, pure, innocence. People love to play with snow as it's fluffy and so good to hold, It doesn't require age to have fun because everyone loves snow, It induces excitement in us, It is an incredible time of the year as it resembles cleansing every unwanted thing away. The eyes of the kids sparkle by catching a glimpse of snow, even if it persuades our inner child of old age people. And there are so many superstitions and folklore regarding snow. During the first snow of the year when we are out with...

  Why do we feel insecure about our individuality? Today's Sunday service sermon started with the topic of the Divine plan - Ehud. The life of Ehud taught us many things through meditation. One of the prominent fortes of Ehud is his UNIQUENESS. The originality among us will differentiate us from each other, which defines each of us in our unique way. At first, we have to believe that we all differ from each other, we have a respective track to stroll, diverse talents and mastery. The insecurity in us arises when we look into others and compare ourselves with them trying to make us look like them, and act like them, and we slowly make ourselves into others, In the end, we lose ourselves while we try to live like others. It is essential to track down who we are. And what we are capable of? But in the search in search of our inner ability, we shouldn't lose our true selves. We usually feel embarrassed when we reveal our true selves to people, thinking we aren't doing things li...

If you ask any of the teenagers or an adult 'what was their best part of the life'? Everyone's answer would be CHILDHOOD. We know that in this part where we don't know the meaning of stress, depression, anxiety, blah blah.....All that we could remember was running here and there playing with friends, siblings, cousins, and getting support from our grandparents even if we were mistaken, watching cartoons, and hearing stories from our parents and grandparents before our bedtime.  The childhood that I had was unique, I used to play alone all by myself every day I didn't have any friends from the neighbourhood but I enjoyed my own company playing with my toys, singing songs and recording them, and collecting leaves and flowers from the garden. I always did something crazy and naughty which ended up as a mess and double work for my parents. But when we gathered up as cousins we used to have fun while playing and doing a drama and filming it, we had a great time together ...

Have you ever sacrificed your wish for your parents?... Have you ever gone against their will? Or After listening to your parents and doing things according to their will do you regret it... In today's blog, I just wanna pour out my thoughts regarding the questions above. Yes, I have sacrificed several dreams of mine for my parents including my academics. Although I wasn't happy with their decision, At the same time I weren't forced to do things according to their will, but their silent expectations always stressed me out . And what if I keep on falling on the path that I chose, Do you think they'll still support me? But what if it worked out?.... It will remain a question until I find an answer to it from my parents. About wish undone, I do have regrets to mourn but if we look into it with another perspective the things that your parents suggest for your life turned out to be a good. At some point in life I would feel that I don't deserve to take up decision it...

  Korea Day Today we had the 9th Korea Day at Madras Christian College, It was such a blessing to get a wonderful opportunity to learn the Korean language and its traditions with so much fun and excitement because we have great supportive and cheerful 선생님 (Teacher) and classmates, The day started with rehearsal and soundcheck of the choir and other dance practice. Then we had pizza for lunch with everyone I felt that I was in a family get-together. Those lovely and joyful seniors treated us as their friends despite of age difference. And ceremony was switched on with random K-pop songs and dances which were followed by the arrival of the chief guest and the graduation of the Korean language class students. Then we had flashmob songs which consisted evolution of K-pop throughout the years pursued by the 'Arirang choir' and commemorative photos with everyone in the hall and then we came out to serve food for the guests. All these months we had so much fun while learning and we al...

So let me start the blog with a valid question, How many hours will you spend for sleeping in a day?..... My sleeping hours got reduced in the past 3 months I would sleep for 5 hours a day whereas a human has to sleep at least for 8 hours is the doctor's prescription. But you guys, never think of me as a spirited or bustling person those words never suit me. Sleep is a wonderful activity for active beings, by sleeping your anger can go down, and can be relieved from unwanted stress and overthinking, and it will even boost your mental energy. Moreover, you can escape from reality for a while, which means when you wake up from sleep you'll have the confidence to encounter and conquer the battle with which you have been struggling for days. And I have heard people saying those who sleep a lot are sluggish humans, Does it even make any sense?.... Everyone knows how important sleep is, in an individual's life. After a long tiring day even if I get a 10-minute nap that would be s...

Do you guys know what education is when you were 17 years old probably in your 12th grade?........ all I could remember was going to school to study, and getting back home to study, I don't think education is something that has to be forced on kids instead they have to learn things according to their interest. by forcing and stressing them nothing is going to change they might start to hate the things that you were forcing them to do. If anyone asks me what was my life's darkest and most depressing period? It was definitely my high school period. Most importantly focusing on our dreams and interests instead of stressing over academics.  My schedule during high school would start at 5:30 in the morning when I had to study for my upcoming cycle tests and especially for my board exams. arriving at school by 8am and from there till 6pm. literally, I was there at school for 10 hours. after coming home I barely take rest or else I would be sitting in the corner of a room reading some...

 Have you ever heard of mermaids?.....what do you think about them?... Do they really exist or are they all made-up fictional stories? from my perspective, it would be fictional stories. If they do exist, then why didn't they show up to anyone, or else our ancestors should have any proof of their existence. My sister once did research about this and I got to know much more about mermaids, mermaids were once found by sailors amidst of storm. when the information got across the world to the research scholars were so eager to visit the place, that they collected the remains of a mermaid and did research on it by preserving it in a museum. Years flew by and the museum caught up with a fire accident, some researchers proclaimed that the skeleton of the mermaid was kept safe in another museum whereas others opposed saying that it was just made up of wax. Still, there is a group of people who believe in mermaids, and here on the other hand there are people who believe that mermaids are ju...

 Could you explain to your younger self ''what trauma is?'' with a suitable instance from your childhood....... I didn't have any traumas in my childhood since I  had a protected atmosphere, A bubble made by my parents to keep me away from this world. The things that were destined to happen to us, It definitely will. But the incident that happened last year turned out to be a dark anguish. It was the dawn of the 21st of January 2023 while sitting at the back of the motorcycle behind my dad. sound of a thud opening my eyes, found myself on the road my whole body was shivering after seeing my dad in an unconscious state. After taking him to the hospital the doctor checked him and informed us that his shoulder was fractured. whenever I get a slight shake while riding a bike, a moment of that spooked incident comes into my mind for a fraction of a second. my brain froze for a few minutes when I couldn't process anything for a while. trauma doesn't have to be the...

As a teenager brought up in a desi family I never found it weird not to question my parents back just nodding and heading for whatever statement they made. But then sometimes I feel frustrated and want to shout from the top of my lungs which would never happen not even in my dreams, keeping everything inside me suppressing all the screams, consoling myself that it won't last eternally, that I have a life ahead of me which would bring a lot of smiles, happiness, a person who holds you and helps you to go higher in life and be a backbone and a reason to all the achievement I make in forthcoming. I hope that everything will get better one day. The tears that I hold on to for years hope will turn out to be tears of joy. The words that are coming out of the mouths of people whom you love and trust the most will make you stab yourself because you wouldn't be able to vent your anger on them, the love that you have for them will stop you from doing that. Couldn't help but end up hu...

Could you express your feelings in your First love or crush?... Personally, It will be a wonderful experience that you could ever have. Especially in our teenage years, when we needed love from the people whom we were surrounded with. The 'Puppy love' that we could have in high school would be pure love which justifies the word 'Love' the feeling that never had been fake, without any expectations of receiving anything back rather than the love they gave in. That love would be so pure and innocent that they'll never think of hurting each other feelings. I Never loved anyone before, But the things I learnt give an a separate section to think about those days I never had this kind of love but will experience some other day.... With hopes.....